What’s Your “What”?

Spring is a season of rebirth and growth, requiring patience as we anticipate summer’s arrival. Still, sometimes it feels like forever before we’re blessed with long, sunny days and warm, starry nights.

Right now, I feel in the midst of my own spring. I know I’m ready to grow, but I’m unsure of what’s next. Do I write another book, or is time for something else? There’s a fork in my path, and I have no idea which road to take.

For a while it frustrated me. I’d rack my brain, trying to figure out a solution. But that only proved futile. Finally, it became clear that analyzing was not the way forward. I must feel the direction in my heart.

As lovely as that sounds, it is not so easy to do. Too many distractions were keeping me from focusing my attention on this dilemma. So, I cleared out a lot of the clutter, purging what I thought was keeping me stuck in familiar patterns. After all, if we don’t create room for something new, how can there be space for what’s meant to be?

Yet, after the clearing, there were no “aha’s.” Instead, an uncomfortable pause. My body felt ready, but I lacked inspiration, motivation, direction.

Then I came across this quote … “Does this support the life I am trying to create?”

Hoping to digest its meaning, I shut my eyes and tried to imprint the words into my brain.

And that’s when it hit me … I couldn’t figure out the “what’s next” because I had not yet determined the WHY. Doing something new would be a means to and end. What exactly was my “end”? What type of life was I trying to create? I had no idea.

Realizing there are no right and wrong answers—sure, some are higher in vibration than others—I knew the choice was mine. No one else he held the key.

My chest tightened. I’d been down this road before, and I remembered how challenging it was. Not knowing can be paralyzing, making procrastination appealing. But life’s too short not to figure it out, so I decided to accept not knowing, trusting the answer will appear when it’s time.

I’m calling this my discovery phase. Trying to step out of what I know to find something that calls is challenging, but it’s also kinda exciting. Maybe a different career is in my future, or then again, I might embrace a new hobby that piques my interest. Honestly, I have no idea what’s next, so I’m giving myself permission to explore, try things on, imagine what could be.

Perhaps you, too, yearn for something but cannot identify exactly what IT is. You feel stuck, stagnant.

This is soul growth. Nothing is wrong with your current life … you’re just outgrowing it, requiring space for new situations and different lessons to arise. It’s all part of the human experience. Yet, when you’re going through it, it can seem overwhelming, frustrating, or even unsettling.

That’s when trusting the process comes in. Faith opens us to receive life’s next opportunities, prompting an enthusiastic “yes” to the unknown. Whether fine tuning existing skills or learning entirely new ones, we grow, fulfilling soul contracts and completing karmic lessons as we accept invitations from Source. At least, that’s what makes sense to me.

Letting go of what’s become comfortable and predictable challenges the body, mind, and spirit. It forces us to face a void as we await what’s next. But through this process, a metamorphosis occurs, sometimes producing the most unanticipated outcomes. This makes me wonder … did a caterpillar ever think it would evolve into a butterfly? Do we have any idea how high we can soar?